Overcommitted No More

It’s been a rough week.  I’ve been really pre-occupied with things.  One thing in particular that’s been bothering me is that I volunteer for too many things.  It takes away from other things I should be doing.  I am constantly trying to help people and I’m really sick of it.  This week I volunteered to help with this casino night fundraiser at the high school.  I regret it.  The event is this weekend and I just can’t wait for it to be over.  Worst part is that the coach that asked for the help doesn’t seem to appreciate it.  It’s a new year for me. I am changing this aspect of my personality.  I am going to start saying no.  It’s time for me to be selfish and do what I need, not what everyone else needs.

I took a leap and asked my husband for something I wanted this week.  He totally shot me down.  Made me feel insignificant.  I’d say 99% of the time he doesn’t deny me anything.  My life revolves around him and his around mine, his work and our kids, so hearing him say I didn’t deserve something really hurt.  I know he had his reasons.  I also had mine.  He didn’t care.  Like I said, it’s been a rough week.